Grey Saturday thoughts..

Last night I went out with The Ladies. They are an amazing group of women, the majority are quite a bit older than me, quite a bit single and quite a bit content. It’s funny because while we ranged in ages from 25 to 50 we are all loving the lives we’re living. When I was younger and would look at older single women I felt a sense of horror and dread that I would one day end up like them. To be single forever seemed to be the end of the world! Yet last night I looked around at these ladies, and realized that it definitely is not the end of the world. They are strong, independent beautiful women. They have lived and are living and not about to put up with something boring or average. We went to a Spanish restaurant for Tapas and lots and lots of wine and talked and talked…

Now.. I’m not saying that should a good guy come along I will refuse to give in and will go for single independence over domestic bliss but I am saying that should I be one of those Single Forever women… I will make the best of it and know that it is not a horrific situation in the slightest!

Dropping like flies..

Had a chat tonight with a very good longtime friend from home. FD Boy.. you may remember him from previous posts. Anyway we’re both getting busier with life and have way less time to chat.. which is actually ok because I need to be more focused on what’s in front of me and less on what’s ‘over there’.  Anyway today he told me that he’s been ring shopping and planning a wedding for a years time from now.

It was really strange.

I am genuinely happy for him but at the same time.. he is one of the ONLY people from home who understands me and doesn’t make me feel weird for not being on the same path as everyone else. Actually, he’s traveled, moved all over and living in a pretty cool place now so he doesn’t fit the usual mold but you know what I mean. It’s nice that he found what he wants and he’s getting his life in order but it’s just a matter of looking around and seeing that there are very few people in my club now. It’s kind of lonely now.

And how does that make me feel? You ask… Well I don’t know. I really don’t know.

It seems like…

…everyone is getting married… except me.